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new journal... [Jan. 24th, 2005|07:02 pm]
Dark_Ey'Arith Dweller of The Fifth Realm
[mood |rejuvenatedrejuvenated]
[music |the closing of a door]

A change has come... WillowWolf is no more, reincarnated into Le Comtesse de LaCoeur. Be not sad, seek out your new friend at

LeComtesse's Live Journal

Change is the way of life, from death always springs fresh life and hope eternal...

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what's in a name.... [Jan. 24th, 2005|05:24 pm]
Dark_Ey'Arith Dweller of The Fifth Realm
[mood |artisticartistic]
[music |Vast - touched]

I have for some time been pondering over the whole LJ name thing. It sort of defines you and I found that I quickly bored of my LJ 'pen-name'. I think it was really the only obvious thing when I set up LJ, and now I cannot change it :(

I have been thinking for a while that I might start a new LJ with a new name and then the pondering increased - what name can I use???

My online pen-name for almost everything these days is SalixWise, but it still doesnt encompass the magnificience in my soul!!!

The ball has been giving me ideas, I was thinking of a classy name to use there and so I think it has been settled, and when I get the chance (hopefully this evening) I will be setting up a new LJ... for the Comtess de la Coeur.... as I kept saying before the ball, it would have been the Comtess de Changy if only I could sing arias.... never mind.

The only problem now is that I know extremely little french.... ah who cares... It just sounds prettier than Countess....

au revoir
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the weekend.... [Jan. 23rd, 2005|07:41 pm]
Dark_Ey'Arith Dweller of The Fifth Realm
[mood |weirdweird]
[music |dance magic....]

Ah, where do I start.

Friday met Louise in Leicester and headed to the ball in Oxford. The coach seemed to take forever and we had a really rude smelly old man in front of us who needed a good kick.

My corset arrived in the morning, which gave me a happy, until I opened it and tried it on :( It is by no stretch of the imagination steel boned and the panels lack any sort of rigidity, so I might as well have been wearing a cheaply made basque. So I ended up wearing my waist cincher with a cheap vest from H&M. I was not at all happy, but at least I had the wings and the shawl thingy I made to cover it up a bit.

We were a bit rushed in the arriving, finding food, getting to hotel and getting ready, but we got there just after 7 and had a good time. We talked to a couple of different people, but it was slow to start off, mainly because we didnt know anyone. I think I had a better time than MissL, as she said - she wasnt really up for mingling, whereas I was, especially as we didnt know anyone. It wasnt quite what I expected at all, but then things rarely are as strange and wonderous as my mind paints, but it was lovely nonetheless.

Met the organisers, who seem really nice and they thanked me for setting up the LJ and asked me to be involved in the publicity side of things if they do another one, which will be fun. Plus, they complimented me on my wings - worth the effort then!!
The ball room was really nice, and the DJ, though he had a few strange choices, was very good.

Met various people, including a sort of vampire society - am intrigued, though I found some of them slightly drunkenly overbearing by the end of the night which put me off a little.
We were going to meet up with them the next day, but decided not to as we felt a bit uncomfortable about it - might check them out online at a safe distance but thats about it for now.

There was a guy there I thought was cute, though it appeared he had a girlfriend with him. There was a little eye contact, and as I said to MissL I was getting right in the mood to just go over and snog him, so it was best we left before getting slapped. MissL was not as impressed with him - her bent lies more with Orlando Bloom types, whereas she described my taste more as pinups amongst 'the riders of Rohan' - what can I say... Eomer, yum.

Anyways.... the ball was great fun. I had loads of fun before I even started dancing... and then the dancing!! the music was great... any night is great if they play any songs from the Labyrinth :)

Saturday we hung around Oxford, swishing along in our lovely Victorian style skirts and doing general Brideshead things.... We went to the college and saw the window where Sebastian pukes through into Charles's room - despite the fact that is was closed to the public... as MissL says, as long as you look like you belong there. So we went in and sat on a bench and talked for ten minutes, took a couple of discreet photos whilst no one was looking and then headed back out.

We had lunch in the botanical garden - you know the botanical gardens, you must go to see the ivy! But unfortunately it started to rain then and the hems of our long skirts suffered miserably - especially mine (can I help being short) and soon my feet we soaked through - bad shoe choice. Ended up heading back to the hostel where we left our luggage to change.

Had a grand meal at a Lebannese place just by the coach station before heading back to Leicester - best meal I've had in a long time, really lovely!
And then when we got back to Leicester we ended up watching Desperate Housewives, and I have to say I was impressed - not a bad show.

So that was the weekend. Got back to Nottingham a couple of hours ago and am now majorly stressing over my choice of dissertation, need to up my loan, the thought of paying back my loan, the fact that I still havent paid back my undergrad overdraft, and I really want to not have to move home again at the end of this academic year, which with the finances, is looking more and more likely.
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the future.... [Jan. 18th, 2005|01:36 pm]
Dark_Ey'Arith Dweller of The Fifth Realm
[mood |confusedconfused]



comment if you must, the gods know I have nothing!
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woo and hoo [Jan. 18th, 2005|01:01 pm]
Dark_Ey'Arith Dweller of The Fifth Realm
[mood |bouncybouncy]

Finally managed to get in touch with someone from payroll and they have said that the huge wage packet I had at xmas (as some tax seemed to have been refunded on it) is all in order, and it is a result of all this technical tax thingies... well waiting to see if I get anymore back in subsequent wages, but if not, am pretty sure that the inland revenue still owe me quite a bit from when I was working at Rolls Royce, so when I finish this job I might have to check out a rebate.... am very happy....

money, yum.

At least my biggest fear was not founded and I dont have to pay it all back to them... yay.
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It is indeed true... [Jan. 18th, 2005|10:18 am]
Dark_Ey'Arith Dweller of The Fifth Realm
[mood |calmcalm]

The Great LiveJournal
Outage of 2005

During the outage I drank enough coffee to exceed the point of legality, if a regulation were to be created.

What did you do?

Brought to you by geek-foo

To be honest I dont know how I coped... I was despairing that night and desperately needed to write something - end up writing in a paper diary (weird) in some illegible scrawl that I can but only attempt to read... never mind. I survived. Barely.
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apparently though... [Jan. 17th, 2005|12:12 am]
Dark_Ey'Arith Dweller of The Fifth Realm
[mood |awakeawake]
[music |need you ask]

hmmm... not sure about this one, though if I were in her shoes I certainly wouldnt kick The Phantom out of bed, especially when he happens to be Gerard Butler, yum!

You are most like Christine, Very sweet, a little
clueless, and undeceive, but sweet and besides
looks makeup for what ever important attributes
you are missing. I would marry rich and hope
for the best.

What character from Phantom of the Opera are you most like?
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Don Juan [Jan. 16th, 2005|11:07 pm]
Dark_Ey'Arith Dweller of The Fifth Realm
[mood |contemplativecontemplative]
[music |The point of no return....]

So this weekend I went to Leicester to see MissL and Steeb_b... it was fun, actually it was really good, it's the first weekend I have been there and it not be a totally hectic race against time to fit loads in, especially as many clubbing nights as possible.

Raised a lot of questions though, had lots of time to think and then talking things over with MissL... ah the future, whatever shall become of me?

I reiterate this point again - ALL I WANT TO DO IS WRITE

I read a quote somewhere that you know when your a writer when you get up in the morning and it is all you can think to do... it is the truth for me, only mostly I dont have time to work on my writing.

I am dispirited also at the thought of my great book I am working on, 4 volumes of it, though I have barely scratched the surface at the moment with the first 7 chapters... I love it, I love the characters, the places and most of all the story. And at one time I felt it was my best. Now re-reading it, I see it is good, and possibly, hopefully not, it is my best. I feel like there is something deeper inside me, I feel I am sometimes close to writing my soul on to the page, but somehow I am unable...
Inspired by wonderings from this weekend though I had a thought, a germ of an idea which over the course of this evening has grown. I began to write and my soul reached to the surface, it is not there on the page yet, but maybe this is the one - this one will rent my soul clear of my body and strain the pages with my heart's blood.

I am looking, again, as I have so often, and I hope that before I graduate from this MA I will have at least sent my chapters around to agents... I think My creature will take shape and live up to my hopes, but it is not my soul... If I can get that published then imagine how great my writing could become if this new one with its Dark Shadows does succeed in going deeper...

I dont care if I am a success, and the only reason I care to get published is that at the least (hopefully) I can live off my writing and so be able to give myself over to it everyday as I wish to (perhaps it is this that will finally open up these deeper feelings). I dont want to be a good writer... I want to be a great writer, even if no-one remembers my name.
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The ball.... [Jan. 13th, 2005|10:56 am]
Dark_Ey'Arith Dweller of The Fifth Realm
[mood |creativecreative]
[music |is there any point mentioning the obvious??]

Have currently stopped work on my costume.... Have had a night of fitful dreams and awoke needing to write... it has been so long, and The whole time I was at my parents I resisted, quite admirably, the need I felt to write... And so I have decided, subject to the price it reaches, to do a last minute bid on a top I could wear to the ball instead of spending time making one.

We shall see, but, given that I also have to work as many shifts as possible this and next week to make up those I missed to get time off at Christmas, I want to spend as much of the spare time I have writing, before I become, once more unable to do so, due to the constraints of essay writing...

Yes, we shall see...
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To the prosperous year!!! [Jan. 11th, 2005|07:45 pm]
Dark_Ey'Arith Dweller of The Fifth Realm
[mood |thoughtfulthoughtful]
[music |Phantom of the Opera]

hmmm odd day


Went and saw The Phantom of the Opera for the second time, this time with Makota, I think she liked it, a bit anyway :)

Bought a few things so that I can put together a top for the ball... Just have to get it done now, I tend to do these things without a pattern , possibly worse, no sewing machine - so off I go trying to make a top in this fashion... I'm sure it will be fine, there are options if it goes horribly wrong.

Had a long remenice about a guy I met in Adelaide with which things could have been different, however I was on rebound from wanker and not long off going home so avoided the complication... hadnt thought about it in a long time.

I wonder if he will still be there at the tav on a thursday night, we shall see, but I doubt it, and I'm not pinning anything on it - it was a long time ago, I'm a totally different person, as I'm sure he is aswell and I should imagine his life has other things now... would be interesting to see how he is - if he even remembers me, but I dont want anything more than that.

Maybe someone like that will come along again and next time it might be the right time.
Surprisingly I'm not even feeling lonely at the moment - which is when this sort of spouting usually happens :) - I'm just remembering a lost opportunity... and my one regret from Australia.

stupid me
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